I feel like I have my friends back. And for the first time, I felt like I am not the only one that sounds ridiculous when you get dumped.
That’s the thing though, about being dumped, or left, or brokenhearted, you get a free pass (or 15). You get a free pass to cry in a crowded restaurant, to commandeer the conversation with stories about how great things were.
You get a free pass to eat ice cream on the couch, to not save face, over and over again. You get a free pass to expect ridiculous things from someone you know better than anyone else, from someone you know would never do those things .You get a free pass for all of those hopeful thoughts.
You get a free pass and you dont really have to use them wisely, but rather, irrattionaly.
You get a free pass for all of the time you invested and for all of the love you gave. You get 15 free passes for all of the hurt that you never thought you would be in.
And you get a free pass for figuring out your life, because right now you dont really need to. Just figure out yourself.
And just know that for all of those free passes, one day, you will be done and you will have realized that you moved on.
Just don’t hold your breath.