What I watch when I am feeling broken-hearted, lonely, bored or they are better on TBS.
- Sex and the City
- The Proposal
- Going the Distance
- He’s Just Not That Into You
- Notting Hill
Better on TBS:
- The Notebook
- Maid in Manhattan
- The Wedding Planner
- Runaway Bride
- How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
- The Rookie
- What a Girl Wants
- 10 Things I Hate About You
- The Prince & Me
- Now and Then
I met a boy at Trader Joe’s.
I had taken a day off in order to go camping with friends for my birthday. I was parked in front of Trader Joe’s where I grew up, and after running to Ralph’s, I attempted to reorganize all of the camping gear in the back of my truck.
He walked towards me between two passing cars, and suprised me. I said hey, mostly as a reflex. And he asked what I was doing.
I was packing my car for a camping trip with my friends.
He asked if I did this often, I said no, with a little giggle.
I asked if he was from around here, and he said yes.
He asked if I wanted to hang out sometime, and I said sure.
He stood there looking blankly back at me, before I asked him if he had his phone, and he muttered something about not doing this often…
We chatted while I packed my car, then demanded he help me load the ice into the coolers if he was just going to stand there.
I was excited about my new prospect & that I got picked up in the parking lot. Way random.
I miss all sorts of things that were never really there.
The last time I chatted with an ex, I eventually slept with him and that was the end of that. That was the end.
Now, chatting with Refuses is just so painful, but doesn’t hurt enough to stop, because I want it so bad. Deep down, I want him to want to talk to me.
And it doesn’t really matter if I’m not the one starting it, or if I’m the one keeping it out of flirting territory, because I am the one enjoying it and I will enevitably be the one getting over it. solo. alone. without refuses. In my sweatpants, with my girl movie, and an extra season of Mad Men.
But I can’t help myself. I just want to talk to him. Want to see if there is really anything left there.
What I don’t want- is to be his entertainment in the meantime. His person until he finds the next one.
I don’t want to be around for when he is lonely or sad, and without any other girl to make him happy.
Rather I want to be the one he goes to make him happy, over all of the others.
REPEAT AFTER ME: I am the rule, not the exception. I am the rule, not the exception.
5. It is almost fall. That means there is still summer weather in San Diego, but I get to apply my dark purple nail polish to my toesies and not feel out of season. Yay!
3. There will probably be a new boy by Christmas… err, hopefully by Easter?
2. Concerts, concerts and more concerts.Ohh I cannot wait for all of the swooning over lead singers, and the dancing.
1. 45 minute conversations with my brother. He is my anchor, time and time again.
I went to sleep last night at 7:30 pm, and woke up feeling like myself again.
I went to workout (and got my ass-handed to me by an awesome instructor) this morning.
Today I am going to hang out with a group of girls I hung out with before Refuses made an appearance, and I can’t wait to have fun with them again.
I am moving on today, demanding my old life, my old me back, and getting out of this funk.
From here on out I will be working out like I used to, eating like I just worked out, making plans like they are all mine, and living like my heart has never been bruised.
4. going out with girlfriends.
3. baking for girlfriends.
2. dinner with girlfriends
1. Really appreciating the fact that they love you, and they probably won’t ever leave you.